I now feel like I’m on a roller coaster and I’m honestly ready to GET OFF OF IT! For the first part of the Summer I couldn’t be happier with Jeffery’s behavior. His medicine was working wonders and we were calling it a miracle…we finally felt like we found something that was working. The tantrums were almost nonexistent, the back-talking was a LOT less and Jeff was even happy because he wasn’t a “zombie” like he thought he would be after being put on medicine (he has the old ridilin (sp?) in his mind and when it first come out people said kids were zombies) We bragged to his case manager and his psychiatrist how happy we were. This has been a battle we’ve been fighting for YEARS to figure out what’s going on in his head and try to get someone to realize we’re not crazy and he’s not “normal” (I honestly don’t want him to be “normal” I just want him to function and excel in everything he’s capable of…his behavior is holding him back)
His school year was all downhill, the first of the Summer was all uphill and we couldn’t be prouder and we told him! It wasn’t as if we ignored that he was being better, we wanted him to know we were proud of him being good. Then come about a month ago…downhill again! This time he seems WORSE. How that’s possible, I have NO clue!!!! The tantrums are over SIMPLE things, or nothing at all (one day it was because he couldn’t get his jacket off by himself and did NOT want help from Daddy. He ended up missing karate because he couldn’t get himself together and refused to go in.) The attitude is getting bad again, he thinks it’s funny to get in trouble, he is back to lying. One day he was throwing a tantrum over us enforcing a rule (NOT a new rule and one we ALWAYS enforce) and he had such a meltdown I was ready to either commit him or myself because I was at my wits end. When he is in that tantrum there is no talking to him to calm him down, or to even figure out WHY he’s throwing the tantrum.
We go back to see his psychiatrist on Tuesday. I’m not holding my breath for him to do anything but blame me somehow. It’s taken him months to even admit I’m doing everything right and still something is going on with Jeffery…he will probably say “wait until school starts and we’ll see how he does there and if there is no improvement we’ll see.” I really hope he don’t go into his 2nd grade year with a bad start. This now has me more nervous than before. What have we done so bad with him? Neither Jaylin or Jaxon act this way…yes they both have their own issues but none as serious as Jeffery. Actually, Jeffery’s issues started when he was around Jaxon’s age and I’m happy that Jaxon is only mimicking some of Jeffery’s behavior but he’s more interested in making mommy and daddy happy…he don’t like to make us mad….he’s curious and that’s usually the only thing that gets him in trouble.
I’m a mess and if this roller coaster don’t stop soon…I’m going to be sick!